It’s hard to say goodbye to someone’s “legendary” status, and no where else is this more true than when you are the former legend himself.

Anderson Silva – the fallen hero who thrilled us with greatness in the cage only to piss it all away with a pair of failed urine tests – has maintained radio silence since it was announced that he was juiced to the gills for his UFC 183 return. But apparently the call to Instagram was too much to resist, so he posted this:

IN RESPECT TO MY FANS I will not say anything about who I am or what I went through to get here. What matters to me now is the respect from those who have followed my career. I bled, struggled and fought because I love it and because I always wanted to honor the flag of the country I love so much. I don’t know what to apologize for, because I am still waiting for the results and analysis from the specialists that are working to reveal the truth. Everything that I took since my injury are being analyzed. I look for the truth as much as all those who were surprised with the results. I always played clean, I was never a cheater. In eighteen years of my career, I never had a problem with exams. In and out of the Octagon I never slipped in compliance with the principles that always guided me. With much honor and dignity I defended my country where ever I fought. I never used any substances to better my performance in my fights. I love what I do and I would never risk what I took so long to build. I think that the hurry some people have to condemn me is unfair. The time it takes to destroy a reputation is infinitely less than that is taken to build it. I am the one who is most eager to settle this situation. I want those who have always supported me to know that I am still fighting for all the sad happenings of this situation to be cleared.

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Ultimately, he’s denying any wrongdoing. Which is a pretty poor defense to a failed drug test. But hey, Silva was always great at dodging blows, so maybe this rhetoric is just instinct.